More letters, said anonymously.

you told me youd fight for me and then you didnt and honestly the not fighting hurt more than the leaving

you say youre 'bad at texting' but you text everyone else back in two seconds. i checked. i wish i hadnt checked

you moved across the country and i still see something funny and go to text you before i remember we dont do that now

you flirt with me every time were drunk and forget every morning and im tired of being your midnight only

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youre the only friend who checks if i got home safe. i act annoyed. i love it. dont stop

youre my roommates girlfriend and every dinner you cook for us is slow torture and i renewed the lease anyway. whats wrong with me

i've rewritten this a hundred times. we're 'just friends.' i would burn my life down for you. surprise

we had a whole language. dumb inside jokes nobody else got. now theres no one on earth i can say them to

you said 'lets get coffee sometime' six months ago and i still check my messages every day like an idiot

i said i needed space. you gave me so much space you built a whole life in it with someone else. i deserved that

i pretended not to know the answer in class so youd explain it to me. i knew the answer. i've always known the answer. i just wanted the explanation from you

you dared me to kiss you as a joke five years ago and i still think about it and its ruined every kiss since

your girlfriend and i had a whole 'what if we met first' talk in your backyard, drunk, and then she sat on your lap and i've never felt weirder holding a beer

i have a folder called 'taxes 2019' thats just photos of you and its survived two relationships and i cant explain why i keep it

you asked me to teach you guitar and i kept saying next week and there was no next week because you moved. the guitar sits there. i shouldve just taught you

you laughed at my terrible dancing and i signed up for a whole class hoping youd come back. you never did. i can dance now

your mom said im 'not what she pictured' and ive spent a year trying to become it and now i dont know who im marrying for. you or her approval

you introduced me as your 'friend' and something in my chest just folded up and put itself away

we used to argue about everything. movies, pizza toppings, all of it. i miss being wrong at by you. pineapple belongs. you won

you ghosted me and reappeared on his arm three months later and pretended we never messaged and now we double date and its the most surreal thing on earth

i borrow my neighbors dog so i can be at the park when you are. the dogs onto me. help

you remember every little thing i mention offhand and bring it up weeks later like it mattered. it makes me feel seen in a way i cant describe. dont ever stop

i told the whole friend group you 'stole' him when he pursued you and you didnt even know we dated. i froze you out over nothing. im sorry

we have a two second thing every morning at the bus stop where we both almost say something and dont. this is me finally saying the something. hi lucy

i laugh too loud at your jokes. even the bad ones. especially the bad ones. thats the whole tell

you slow danced with me at the wedding and whispered something i've replayed for a year. you know exactly what you said

i've liked you since the group project. yes that one. yes im still not over it. its been forever

we carpooled for one project and talked the whole way and i've never felt that alive since. i still take your highway route hoping

i built you into a whole myth after one summer and ive ended good relationships comparing them to a guy i never even kissed. you